Saturday, February 26, 2005

Meaningless(/full) Conversations..


Kemaren rabu gue pergi ke rehearsal show-nya eric yang entah sudah keberapa kalinya diadakan, di classic rock cafe as always, after a day's stress. Gue depresi banget waktu itu, gara'gara ngegambar terus di studio, gue belon pernah sedepresi itu deh kayaknya. Entah berapa banyak puntung rokok yang gue habisin, tapi gue inget kotak yang baru gue buka siangnya, udah abis dalam waktu sekejap..

Sorenya, setelah studio, ujan deres banget, (yang gak pernah berenti setiap hari selama 2 bulan terakhir di bandung.. ) gue meringkuk sendirian di kamar kos, dan bayangan akan kerjaan masih menghantui, bikin gue kayak orang bego, bengong terus. Gue pikir, tai lah semuanya, gue perlu break dulu, gak akan bisa kerja juga malemnya. Besides, gue emang udah lama kepengen dateng ke rehearsal show. Acara yang minggu lalu gue udah ketinggalan kecoa neraka, bumblebee dan seek sick six. Jadi minggu ini gue kudu dateng. Ada Black Rasta Society (yang ternyata isinya anak'anak unpar angkatan gue juga), Inspirational Joni, dan Speaker 1st. Tetapi di sudut lain di kota bandung ini, di laga pub, ada gig'nya Ingrowing, band grindcore asal Ceko, with performances by seringai and jasad. Tapi kejauhan, dan kayaknya kalo gue kesitu bakal kecapekan karena moshing dan badan pasti memar'memar jadi gue ke classic rock aja.

Gue dateng masih cukup sore karena acaranya belon dimulai, sekitar jem 7 kurang lah. Gue langsung nyamperin eric yang duduk di tengah bersama 3 orang lainnya and greet him with a belated birthday handshake, heheh. Di meja itu jadinya ada, Ai, vokalis kecoa neraka yang mukanya kayak rob scnieder kata eric. I've seen his face before, dan gue baru inget dia salah satu orang yang ikut workshop bareng Han Sungpil, fotografer korea yang sempet mampir kemaren di Sunaryo. Gimana elu bisa lupa mukanya kalo ada 100 buah foto dirinya bersama wisatawan di tangkupan perahu waktu pameran di Sunaryo. Diliput di pikiran rakyat lagi, dengan temen gue sebagai blurred foregroundnya (btw, temen gue itu bangga banget masuk koran, jadi fotonya di pajang di kampus). Next to Ai, is Jena, not Jenna, not Jay-na, but Jhe-na. Gue sempet bingung kenapa namanya bisa gak lazim begitu hehe. Dan ada satu lagi cewe yang ikut ngobrol, tapi gue lupa namanya. Ntar gue tanya Eric lagi deh.

Btw, i ended up having a deep conversation with the girl who's name i forgot. A real heavy anonimous conversation. She refused to bring up her backgroud to the conversation (which is convetionally an opening topic for a introducial conversation), dia bilang, biar pembicaraannya gak berenti di 'eh kenal sama yang namanya ini' ato 'gue punya temen di situ', dsb. Pretty fun juga gue rasa, belon pernah ngobrol kayak gini, and i really enjoyed it since i'm very talkative and curious. I do agree, model ngobrol kayak gini masih sangat langka untuk ditemukan di Indonesia, talking to a stranger with a heavy or just casual topics. Di tengah hisapan rokok, gemetar tubuh gara'gara depresi, dan topik pembicaraan yang waktu eric nguping dibilang berat banget hehe, gue justru sangat nyaman, dan gak kesulitan untuk ngobrol. Dia orang yang periang, dan sensible, meanwhile gue lagi depresi, tapi gak kehilangan selera ironis dan satir untuk gak sengaja melucu. Tapi gue gak ngobrol lama, 20 minutes tops. It's like an intelectual/brain quickie. Meaningless or meaningful, gue sedikit banyak mulai mikirin tentang pembicaraan, how it should went, and how i wanted it to go. That conversation was really honest, dan gak harus membuat lu berbohong tentang dirilu sendiri, karena bukan dirilu yang penting, tapi pikiranlu, dan pikiran elu tertuang didalam omonganlu. wel, it's been a nice conversation, and i really love to have it in the future, anonimous girl.

Back at this minute, gue baru aja menerima invitation ke ringo. I usually deleted it, karena gue gak tertarik akan trend sesaat yang katarsis (err.. refer to roy suryo, hehe), or at least i need a trigger for it. Tapi nama di email ini seems to be somewhat special. Regina Julia Taslim. Wel, she was my girlfriend a couple of years ago, the last for all these years of being single. It was special, she was special, although it might not have the best ending, wel you could say it ended up being tragic for me and i think she is still have the guilty feeling for having a significant other.

Wel, actually I've been thinking about her for the last few devastating days (and unfortunately more to come) for me. Alasan kenapa gue selalu mikirin dia, wel i dont think i have any feelings for her anymore, tapi karena gue gak pernah punya hubungan yang baik semenjak putus, gantel berat, and it's really a burden for me when i was remembering my time at the past. You know, i just want to be in contact, just for the sake of a friendly relationship, (pernah gak sih elu berasa kalo punya hubungan yang gak baik sama seseorang dalam hidup elu itu rasanya gak enak? try to be honest with your heart?) dan kayaknya to me, she's always avoiding me. Mungkin aja karena masih guilty feeling itu, but i don't know for sure. Whatever it is, gue kepengen berhubungan sama dia, just friends, because we used to understand each other at the past, why can't we do it now? Sure a couple of things have changed, but the nicest things never changed, plenty to mention here. Btw, kalo diliat di foto'fotonya di friendster, dia tambah cantik, doh!(homer's grunt) hehe.

I was hoping that i could have a nice conversation with her, mungkin gue pernah bikin kesel, mungkin gue pernah kesel sama dia, but all i have is left is to hope the best for her, it's no use to get mellancholic over it. (thay is why that emo is so gay, hehe, jk) You know, like the conversations when old friends met? Apa susahnya sih? Wel, i think i deserved another shot of trying to start it. Maybe with this new ringo thingie, whatever that is, at least i got her new email.


Ryan ngoceh'ngoceh at 2/26/2005 08:55:00 PM 2 ikut'ngoceh

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Verylate New Year Resolution

Last monday, on one stressful morning, saat dosen ngoceh terus, makes me think about myself. This year i'll be 20, i gotta to have something that is more meaningful to my life. I have to start with new goals, cause at this age, the old ones are not really worth it. So here it goes, with just 10 months to go, just trying to be a better man;

1. Go one step further towards holistic/spiritual approach towards a better/healthier living
2. Dig phillosophy, and try to contemplate it to my ratio and self understanding, and my designs
3. Decrease a 'labour of love' work on campus activities, and do more money-earning or experience-earning work
4. Focus on my SPA projects
5. Learn more on digital architectural software, and gain skills
6. Do more exercise, remove the fats of my body
7. Learn to play a piano
8. Fix my website and publish it


Ryan ngoceh'ngoceh at 2/26/2005 08:54:00 PM 0 ikut'ngoceh

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

10 LAYERED QUESTION! 's FUN!



LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE...

Name:
Yustinus Ryan Koesuma..

Birth date:
12 Juni 1985

Eye Color:
BLACK

Hair Color:
BLACK

Righty or Lefty:
Righty.. tapi kadang2 yang dibawah juga
suka nunjuk..


LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE...

Your heritage:
INDONESIA..
tapi heritage mah ada di jl. riau atuh...
deket yonas sama the summit tuh..

Shoes you wore today:
i dont usually wear shoes.. today is too

Your weakness:
hot chicks that makes me wanna say 'holy
virgin mother of sweet jesus, bless me..'

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY,
TOMORROW...

Your most overused phrase on YM/ MSN:
hahaha
heheh
wel

Your thoughts first waking up:
just giv me anotha 5 minutes god*mmit!!

Your bedtime:
siang hari..

Your most missed memories:
falling in love..
(btw gue baru ikutan test di fuali.com dan
gue ternyata cuma 56% emo, hahaha!)

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK...

Pepsi or Coke:
coke lah..
coke yang satu lagi.. wel..

Donald's or Burger King:
mcd karena burger king udah bangkrut di
kota2 gede di indo, gak tau di daerah masih
ada ato engga..

Single or group dates:
single.. karena gue orangnya romantis dan
pemalu..

Adidas or Nike:
VANS and Newrock boots!!!! who gives a
d*mn about those stupid jumping basket
popping sh*t
lets rock on! (karena gue gak bisa olah
raga.. cuman bisa gebukin orang dan lari
hehehe..)

Lipton Tea or Nestea:
MaxTea

Chocolate or vanilla:
it depends.. but i like jamaican chocolate
and straciatella

Cappuccino or coffee:
depends on my mood

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU...

Smoke:
enggak ko..

Take showers:
eventually hehe...

Have a crush(es):
and hopes...

Think you've been in love:
f*ck yes

Want to get married:
sumday...

Get motion sicknes:
not if you think about it..

Get along with your parents:
YUP

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH...

Drank alcohol:
drink and drunk.. gak cuman drank..

Gone to the mall:
tolong yah mas, saya tidak semenyedihkan
itu...
saya gaul gitu luoh..

been on stage:
hell yeah!

Eaten an entire box of Oreo:
lupa..

Eaten sushi:
i love sushi rolls

Dyed your hair:
pernah dulu pas masih jadul hehehe

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER

Played a game that required removal of
clothing:
hm...

Got beaten up:
not that much actually..

Changed who you were to fit in:
nope

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER....

Age you hoping to get married:
i think so

Children:
i love children

Describe your dream wedding:
glad you asked..
gue pengen married dengan pesta rock n roll
bikin sendiri special buat wedding party gue
instead of fancy ballrooms
i'll use the money to rent some topnotch
soundsystems
dan ngajak band2 favorit gue dan band2
temen gue untuk main
pesta pora, bir bintang (kalo punya duit lagi
bir impor deh...)
chicken & bbq, gak perlu pake sepatu,
moshing aja
semua temen2 gue dan beberapa groupies
gak masalah lah...hehe
indoor or outdoor gak masalah..
yang penting have fun..
i'll drink beer till my belly pops
f*ck ballrooms and stupid crappy dance
songs!
i've seen enough of those gara ngepar di
sweet17an mulu..


Dream proposal:
never thought of it..
'ngent*t yuk!' would be enough kalu
mau 'kawin'

How do you want to die:
rich and famous!
dan sebahagia hugh hefner...

LAYER NINE: IN A PARTNER

Eye color:
flexibel

Hair color:
flexibel

Height:
flexibel

Personality:
smart, fun, good sense of humour dan setia..

Handsome/Beautiful:
beautiful preferably
in and out

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS....

Number of piercings:
lupa

Number of tattoos:
lupa juga (atau berusaha keras untuk
melupakan, tapi pengen lagi)

Number of times my name has appeared in
the newspaper:
gak pernah, gue cupu sih..

Number of scars on my body:
gimana sih cara ngitung lecet?

Number of things in my past that I regret:
i don't count those things
i don't really care about it anyway


Ryan ngoceh'ngoceh at 2/24/2005 03:44:00 PM 1 ikut'ngoceh

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your future wedding...??


o How old to get married?
as soon as 'possible' juga sih...
i dunno really, i hope that i can find a decent
income, a decent home, a decent car, and a
decent savings before i do
i dont wanna be a mess up when i'm getting
married..

tapi kalo tiba2 gue jadi penyanyi dari band
yang lagunya saking seringnya diputar dan
bikin gue muak dan berkata, "i'm fine peter!
shut the f*ck up and stop your godd*mn
question!!", dan memang gue segitu
begonya to f*ck a f*cking douche bag out of
nowhere and the b*tch start saying that she's
having my kid and i should marry her
because she didn't want her son to be a
bastard like his dad.. yah gue bisa apa? i'll
be so f*cking dumb, dude, can't really
complained on that....
(hehehe my warm, special regards on
ariel 'peterpan'..)

o A place for your wedding party?
refer to my last bulletin board post;
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Describe your dream wedding:
glad you asked..
gue pengen married dengan pesta rock n roll
bikin sendiri special buat wedding party gue
instead of fancy ballrooms
i'll use the money to rent some topnotch
soundsystems
dan ngajak band2 favorit gue dan band2
temen gue untuk main
pesta pora, bir bintang (kalo punya duit lagi
bir impor deh...)
chicken & bbq, gak perlu pake sepatu,
moshing aja
semua temen2 gue dan beberapa groupies
gak masalah lah...hehe
indoor or outdoor gak masalah..
yang penting have fun..
i'll drink beer till my belly pops
f*ck ballrooms and stupid crappy dance
songs!
i've seen enough of those gara ngepar di
sweet17an mulu..
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o The wedding car?
sesuatu yang kalo lewat lampu merah kagak
dibaret sama nenek2 tua atau kapak merah
gak asik aja kalo lagi kawinan trus dirampok
dimobil
kijang setia gue juga cukup kok
putih, mengkilat.. bbmnya murah karena
solar, kurang apa coba?

o The wedding soundtrack?
can't lie about the fact that i do love romantic
jazzy songs
tapi kalo konsepnya yang seperti gue tulis..
mungkin gue suruh band temen gue bawa
lagu wedding march ala hollywood metal
kayak rhapsody
sounds fun like sh*t

o Honeymoon town?
i do love NYC and Paris..
i hope i could afford the money hehe
but.. anywhere in a cozy place will do for me
(inget, saya adalah cowo, and i don't really
give a f*ck about the place, asal dompet
saya mencukupi..)

o How many children?
probably not more than three.. less(kid) is
more(savings) in this case

o Wife - work/home?
i do prefer a career type
gak perlu keren2 amat yang penting produktif

o Husband - occupation?
anything that'll get me f*cking rich

o Children's names
belum tau..
gue suka konyol sendiri hehehe
tapi kalo cewe gue kasih nama nancy dari
lagu nancynya frank sinatra
kalo cowo.. mungkin jimi ato miles

o What pet? Name?
i do love dogs
i would have them if someone could help me
not to be careless hehehe
siberian husky probably, kalo mereka gak
kepanasan di daerah tropis..

o how many cars?
satu buat gue
satu buat bini gue
satu2 buat tiap2 anak gue
satu2 buat tiap2 anjing peliharaan gue
(ngimpi...)

o what's for your family breakfast? lunch?
and dinner?
gak pernah mikirin dalam skala 'keluarga'..


o how many sex @week?
do i have to really answer this regarding that
the ones who reads this would probably
think up of a number in their minds..?

o the children call you...
ryan is fine for me
tapi mungkin papa lebih enak didenger

o a goodnight song for your children?
some jazz standards songs
atau lagu2 black metal yang serem2 biar
anak2 gue kebal kalo ditakut2in..

o your hairstyle will be like?
i'll probably be bald by then kalo ngeliat
kondisi rambut gue yang sekarang..

o any love nickname for your
husband/wife?
"cewweeee..." (dalam nada genit..)
atau.. "maniiss.." (dalam nada genit)
yang pasti bukan "hoi, barudak betina!"

o still using the friendster?
kalau friendster masih "gaul" saat nanti...


Ryan ngoceh'ngoceh at 2/24/2005 03:43:00 PM 0 ikut'ngoceh

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Monday, February 14, 2005

Pesan Cinta Komunitas Blog Indonesia untuk Roy Suryo

Ada yang tahu soal KRMT Roy Suryo Notodiprojo? Roy Suryo adalah seorang analis perkembangan IT yang sangat dibicarakan orang-orang. Not because that he is the type of the genius IT speaker that you'd imagine, but he is notorious and infamous because of his stupid and unreasonable comments towards the IT society in Indonesia and moreover he is seriously offensing the IT division of the Indonesian Election Comitte. Pokoknya, basically dia itu orang yang sok tahu, sok terkenal, sok berpengaruh dan sok pinter terhadap perkembangan IT di Indonesia, dan selalu berkomentar hal-hal yang bullshit terhadapnya, gak ada dasar dan completely false. Herannya dia cukup banyak muncul di media, mungkin karena gelar magisternya dari ugm dan relasinya. I don't mean no ethnical offense here but, Roy Suryo is the type of some slobby javanese oldfart, yang sok dewasa padahal bloon. This is so stereotypical, but again, i dont mean any offense to the javanese.

Dia mulai dikenal sama berkomentar tentang otentisitas rekaman suara telepon habibie, yang secara biometris sangat akurat, yang sebenarnya, sangat rendah akurasinya, terlebih lagi pada rekaman telepon. Dia juga yang berkomentar otensitas soal foto sukma ayu dan bjah, yang bisa dilihat metadatanya dan tidak mungkin dirubah, yang pada kenyataannya mudah sekali dirubah lewat hex editor.

Nah selama dua minggu terakhir, Roy Suryo mengeluarkan pernyataan-pernyataan yang menyatakan kalo friendster dan blog itu tren sesaat dan sesat hehehe.. Banyak palsunya katanya. Gue males ngebahas panjang lebar soal komentar'komentarnya di media itu bisa dilihat disini. Pokoknya intinya dia itu berkomentar kalo blog dan friendster itu gak penting banget, tapi dia sendiri gak tau pasti apa itu blog dan friendster, or at least gak ngerti cara kerjanya. Jadinya yah just like i said, dia itu cuman ngomong bullshit ajah.

Anyway, hari ini enda dan priyadi membuat gerakan di komunitas blogger indonesia untuk roy suryo. Ini bisa dicopy paste ke blog sendiri'sendiri, and this is for all you bloggers who have faith in blogging dan friendster networking, and believe that roy suryo is just a prick next door, dan masih ingin menyelamatkan rakyat indonesia dari roy suryo in their ignorence.

Valentine Untuk Roy Suryo

Sehubungan dengan berbagai komentar KRMT Roy Suryo Notodiprojo akhir-akhir ini di berbagai media, kami, komunitas blog Indonesia berkesimpulan bahwa beliau kekurangan informasi atau bahkan menerima informasi yang tidak benar tentang blog. Kami sendiri memandang bahwa blog adalah hasil dari evolusi bertahun-tahun di Internet, yang semakin menunjukkan bahwa Internet adalah wadah nyata untuk saling menghubungkan orang-orang di dunia nyata.

Kami juga yakin bahwa KRMT Roy Suryo sebagai seorang manusia tentulah sangat membutuhkan kasih sayang dari orang lain. Oleh karena itu, kami, komunitas blog Indonesia pada bulan penuh cinta ini sepakat untuk mendedikasikan hari Valentine tahun 2005 khusus untuk KRMT Roy Suryo Notodiprojo.

Salam hangat selalu serta penuh perhatian dan kasih sayang dari kami untuk KRMT Roy Suryo Notodiprojo di Hari Kasih Sayang ini.

ps. Bagi rekan-rekan sesama penulis blog yang ingin ikut berpartisipasi, silakan lihat undangan acara ini


Ryan ngoceh'ngoceh at 2/14/2005 07:00:00 AM 6 ikut'ngoceh

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